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I am about to do something that the majority of you won't understand. If you've been in my shoes, then you know the way your clothes don't fit the season. There's that shadow that is cast over the length of your lifetime. You can’t quite grow free from its shame.
When I look at my signature on my greatest works of art, my name reminds me of a story. It’s the story that dad wrote into my body with anger, hits, kicks, pepper & tape. Not much love. Not much care. As a boy, he even asked me to ask him if he did. He said no. As a man, my highest dreams and accomplishments are tainted by his name clinging onto mine. His fingerprints are left all over my life, though he’s been out of it for half of it. But the story gets better.
I’ve tended the wounds in my twenties. Wrestled with God till I was tired, giving into His affections. I have learned forgiveness. I have grieved the losses. I have peace, and a wealth of faith. My name is something I must be delivered from as much as the abuse and loss itself.
I've put over two years of thought into the idea of legally changing my last name. It's one of the more significant decisions I can make. I did not want to hasten it. As I’ve weighed the balance of the past against the future, one thing is clear. I am my own man. I choose a different legacy for my future wife and kids. I am not passing on the symbol of my greatest wound onto my greatest privilege.
With great joy on my 28th birthday, I am proud to re-introduce myself to the world,
Wesley Dale Ayers
04.19.2017
When I look at my signature on my greatest works of art, my name reminds me of a story. It’s the story that dad wrote into my body with anger, hits, kicks, pepper & tape. Not much love. Not much care. As a boy, he even asked me to ask him if he did. He said no. As a man, my highest dreams and accomplishments are tainted by his name clinging onto mine. His fingerprints are left all over my life, though he’s been out of it for half of it. But the story gets better.
I’ve tended the wounds in my twenties. Wrestled with God till I was tired, giving into His affections. I have learned forgiveness. I have grieved the losses. I have peace, and a wealth of faith. My name is something I must be delivered from as much as the abuse and loss itself.
I've put over two years of thought into the idea of legally changing my last name. It's one of the more significant decisions I can make. I did not want to hasten it. As I’ve weighed the balance of the past against the future, one thing is clear. I am my own man. I choose a different legacy for my future wife and kids. I am not passing on the symbol of my greatest wound onto my greatest privilege.
With great joy on my 28th birthday, I am proud to re-introduce myself to the world,
Wesley Dale Ayers
04.19.2017
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Your creation is amazing! Could you please share how do you make it? Is it fully processed in digital?